I am re-reading the Twilight series, as I’ve mentioned. I’m partway into book two (I’m going slower now, knowing what happens I’m stopping and delving into everything). It reminded me of a comment one of my bestest buds made on my Don’t Judge Me post:
The first one wasn’t so bad. But I couldn’t make it through the second. I just couldn’t listen to another chapter of her life being worthless. :sigh:
I remember this weirding me out a bit, because I really didn’t get the “my life is worthless” vibe in book two. Her whiny-ness in the beginning of book one almost made me give up, but after that? Didn’t notice it so much. I mean, minor things, but in character with being a normal teenager.
So I’m rereading it now.
And I think I see what she was talking about.
(kind-of-spoiler alert, fyi)
See, Bella lapses into really deep depression. For example the wandering through the woods and not finding her way out. The hearing searchers calling for her and not being able to conclude she should respond until they’re gone. And then the months of being so out of it she’s not even noticing the people around her.
I’m guessing that’s what seemed over the top, “Oh come on!“-esque to my friend. Guy leaves, triggers THAT?? Come on. Pull yourself together.
Didn’t phase me at all. In fact, it resonated with me.
Because I have been there.
I have been collapsed, listening to my hubby call my name, knowing I should answer so I don’t worry him, and not able to dredge up enough caring or determination to do so.
I have been lying in bed, noticing as if from a distance that my body is hungry or needs to use the restroom, but not feeling it, not responding, not able to convince myself to get up and take care of the problem.
I have moved through days not noticing what is happening with people around me. Not feeling. Having to fake every bit of conversation, every response, even just staying upright.
I have hated being this way, hated hurting the people around me, hated damaging everything I’ve worked for…and still been unable to pull myself out of it.
And I don’t even have depression “that bad.”
So yes, I have no problem believing that Bella could have such a response. Because I have had such a response. Hell, I have had such a response with no provocation. Granted, mine last less time, but that’s largely due to my incredible support network, and that I’ve been dealing with this for years, plus my personal flavor of depression.
But I can see how if you’ve never experienced it…it could seem over-the-top in the book.