Monthly Archives: December 2011

You know you’re a mom-to-be if…

…you are saving all sorts of money on feminine hygiene products….which is unfortunately all going to additional toilet paper.

…while your hubby is drooling over electronics, you are drooling over strollers.

…as far as others are concerned, all your personal boundaries seem to be disappearing.

…you can no longer sit or lay down in the places you used to because any little thing will throw your back and hips out of alignment.

…you are regularly told you are glowing, and still have no idea what that means.

…you are overtaken with a periodic driving need to CLEAN ALL THE THINGS!

…being kicked in the gut is the best feeling in the world.

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WW: 2011 Favorites

I’ve decided to (finally) sit down and participate in Writer’s Workshop again! I chose this prompt:

1.) This year in blog posts…choose a favorite post from each month of 2011 and share.

It’s been a big year full of changes, fun to take a look back!


After 2/3 of a year working for the pet store, I wrote about the event which finally broke the camel’s back and got me out of that healing holding pattern of a minimum wage job! The store was great, but the owners were AWFUL, and I am so glad to be free of them. Reading about their crap still makes my blood boil!


My sweet hubby turned another year older in February, and I let him know how very, very much I love him. Heck, even I’m impressed with my normally absent ability to express my feelings!


The hubby and I went for an impromptu vacation to Portland and at Saturday Market discovered one of my favorite artists.


I was thinking about some of the every-day luxuries that I have, being straight, which I take for granted, and how these luxuries were brought to light for me by a small experience with my friend.


While visiting an uncle-in-law, my hubby simultaneously put his foot in his mouth and embarassed the heck out of me in a quite impressive fashion. On the upside, I now know his uncles’ rug has quite a beautiful pattern, due to some intense studying.


I had my first “enhanced” pat-down by the TSA and wrote about how being publicly groped by the TSA is in some ways worse than being publicly groped by a random stranger on the street.


An open letter to my depression was not well-received by its addressee. Though its visits have been less frequent since!


I started training for my first 5k! …of course, I then had to *stop* training a few short months later when I got pregnant and relaxin + not enough history with running + high-impact activity was already causing me back and hip problems. One thing I am really looking forward to post-baby is being able to start the Couch-to-5k program again. It is incredible!


My own contribution to the It Gets Better project for Suicide Prevention Week. SAnD means I wrote it instead of putting up a video, but there it is. Remembering how low I have been made me cry, but also reaffirmed for me that it really, really REALLY does get better. And depression is a lying bitch.


I announced why I had been largely absent from my blog for the past few months: first trimester fatigue was kicking my butt! I’m still proud of our Halloween announcement photo.


As my pregnancy progressed I contemplated how very strange it can be.


Baby started dancing in my belly, the most incredible sensation I have ever felt.

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18 weeks

I am bad about uploading photos from our camera, so this is about a week out of date, but here are me and baby at 18 weeks:

In a related note, that sweater no longer fits. Which is awesome. Grow, baby, grow!


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Bubbles and goldfish

At first I thought that when I laid down muscles or tendons in my belly were releasing as your home grew to accommodate you.

Then I started to feel something like bubbles popping in my abdomen, even when sitting up, but only when paying attention.

Then you surprised me when I was driving to work one day and wasn’t paying any attention at all.

After that I started to feel something like a little goldfish in my tummy bopping against the walls of it’s plastic baggie of water…as long as I was sitting. And then also laying down.

The bumps got stronger and stronger, until a couple nights ago your daddy could feel them, too. His eyes lit up when I asked, “Did you feel that?” and he could answer, “Yes!”

Now, baby, I can feel your dancing no matter what I am doing or what position I am in. It fills my days with joy, to have you intrude into my consciousness even when I am busy or focused on other things. Sometimes your movements feel like gentle flutters, and sometimes they feel like a full out kick. I love them all! Every movement still fills me with wonder that you are there, a separate entity growing inside of me, an individual who is part of me but distinct from me.

People tell me that when a kick in the ribs feels like a kick in the ribs I will not enjoy your exercising as much. Maybe they’re right. But I have loved carrying you so far, even with the not-so-fun parts, and I simply can’t imagine that changing.

Keep growing stronger, baby, and kick me all you need!

I love you so much,  before we’ve even met.


your mama

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These are a few of my favorite things…

Yesterday I got to hear baby’s heartbeat again. Does that ever get old? I don’t think so. Best. Sound. Ever.


Also yesterday, the student midwife went to palpate my abdomen to see how things felt and immediately said, “Hi, baby!” I was kind of surprised, and wondered if she was just commenting on the fact that my uterus is right under the skin(ish). But then after moving up to find the top of my uterus she came back to the bulk of it and said, “There! I can feel baby right here. Hi, baby!” I was so surprised! I had no idea she could already feel the outline of where baby is! She did tell me she couldn’t tell what was what, yet, because baby is still so small. But just her being able to find baby manually made it hit home a little: There’s a baby in there!!!


While I was typing this afternoon with my laptop on my lap my puppy came over, dragged himself across my arms, and fell asleep supported by them. I spent the next hour not moving my arms from my keyboard so he didn’t wake. ‘Dorable.


I’m pretty sure I’m feeling baby move. It feels like when you’re bringing a goldfish home from the store and he swims into the side of the bag. And it’s getting more frequent and stronger. So. Cool.


I switched midwife groups. My appointment yesterday was with a new midwife group. I just wasn’t happy with my old ones. I didn’t feel respected and involved in my own care….which was the whole point of going to a midwife in the first place. So I started shopping around and found a new group who, so far, I absolutely love. It’s a pair of midwives who run a much smaller practice and so are far less assembly-line. As my hubby said after our appointment yesterday, with the old midwives it felt like they were holding court. With these, it feels like they’re having a conversation with you. They are still clearly the experts, but they are so comfortable in their competence they don’t feel like they have to prove it all the time by being so authoritative. It’s wonderful.


Christmas is here in 9 days! Sweet! Wait…when did that happen???


Only 2.5 weeks until I get to see my baby on ultrasound for the first and (hopefully) only time! (Hopefully because the only reason I’d have another is if something is wrong.) Holy cow that’s only 2.5 weeks away! I CANNOT WAIT.

Baby might be willing to wait, though. He/She swam away from the doppler yesterday. Which cracked me up.

Oh, and to make it even better? My midwives gave me permission to not drink a crapton of water before showing up. I’m pulling for no tears this ultrasound! Well, except happy ones.


What are your favorite things this holiday season?

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I knew this would happen

So *I* feel like I look ridiculously pregnant. My belly is HUGE! And anyone who has known me would definitely recognize that something is up.

Today I went to work in the deaf classroom. The teacher there has been very supportive and excited about my pregnancy; she is just someone it is genuinely fun to share this with! So I wore a shirt in which my bump is OBVIOUS. It’s a pre-pregnancy shirt that is tight and clingy. But evidently, if you don’t know me, I just look fat.

Because the teacher wasn’t there. A sub was.

And when the kids went to lunch she turned to me and asked,

“So, are you from the high school?”

Yeeeeah. I can’t wait until I’m *obviously* showing. I should get some very fun looks. Maybe they’ll even try to cast me for 16 and Pregnant!


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Where little reindeer come from

My mom has a tradition that I absolutely love. When my brother and I were in elementary school we each did the requisite 3,254 holiday craft projects, which we proudly brought home to display. My mom kept some of the best, and each year at Christmastime one wall of our house is dedicated to nothing but the “art” projects of my brother and I from when we were little. It is cute and a great conversation starter as guests ask about pieces or we reminisce.

She now puts the wall up before Thanksgiving, so that when I visit it is up and I can enjoy it. This year it is behind her dining room table, and on Black Friday she and her husband and me and my husband were all sitting there, eating a casual dinner, when we started discussing the pieces.

One is a paper reindeer head, for which I cut out all the pieces and connected them, including a halter, and decorated with glitter.

This conversation ensued:

Hubby: Why does that reindeer’s nose band say “HP”?

Mom and me: *giggling*

Mom: It doesn’t say, “HP,” it says “HO”!

Me: See, when I was younger I thought it would be great if each reindeer’s nose band said “HO,” and then when they were all lined up pulling the sleigh it would look like “HO HO HO HO HO HO HO HO”!

Mom and me: *more giggling*

Hubby and mom’s husband: *staring in a mixture or horror and confusion*

Me: When I picked it up to admire it the glue wasn’t dry, so the “O” dripped a little.

Mom: Her teacher tried to get her to add a second “HO” on there, but she refused, explaining that when all the reindeer were together it would look right.

Me: It would be so festive with all of them!

Mom and me: *hysterical giggling*

Every year we celebrate Christmas in my family under the watchful eyes of one of santa’s reindeer hos.

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